please just stab me already
send me flying and falling
from this pyre that i built
that was marvelous 
was glorious
divine
the first of its kind
unique to all others 
and appraised by my brothers
but then another appeared
rising higher and faster
and soon mine was forgotten 
in a pie of dust
no one remembers the original
just the tallest
the flashiest
the most special
no one remembers the first
please please please
burn this burden off of me
let me burn out
please i want to live
i want to live in the sun
not under the shadow of the second pyre
please set me free
i will be left behind
i will be left with ashen marks on the ground
and ink dripping out of my brain
stains on my coat
and trapped screams in a voice incomprehensible 
i will be left behind
like all the others that ive left in my own path
i will sleep now
i will rest
i will try not to wake again